36.5 WEEKS PREGNANT

Ok, so some people reminded me that I haven't updated this site in a few weeks - and I know I've been slacking...so here goes (this may be a long one)

Yeah, so I've definitely have grown since the last time I've posted pics and trust me I FEEL that I have grown!! I feel like there is no room left in there but I know he's still going to get bigger. He's all the way up in my ribs and it sucks b/c I can't yawn and get a full breath. Brenden has found a new hobby called, "Lets see how far we can stretch mom's belly and kick her" - VERY painful!

Last week had my first bout of Braxton-Hicks contractions (which mainly feel like period cramps). Don't believe anything you read about these being painless b/c they are not!!! Also had them for about 1 hour on Monday April 7th and it was so bad that I was doubled over trying to pump gas, I thought this is it, only to be left exhausted.

This week I started only working 6 hours a day, which has helped with the tiredness immensely. I get home, eat a snack, and take an hour nap each day and then get up eat dinner, watch TV and wait for 9pm so I can go to bed!!

I am getting very excited to meet my little guy and cant wait until the day I can bend over again!!

On a "cute" note - the other weekend Ben & I were laying on the couch and Ben had his head on my stomach and without thinking he made a very loud sound, which scared Brenden and Ben got kicked in the head!! - I laughed so hard, then while I was laughing Ben made a comment how my belly was like Santa's in the fact that the whole thing moves when I laugh, so that just made me laugh harder!!!

I cant wait to see my son with my husband and the very thought brings me to tears...

In regards to the list mentioned in week 33 - oh poor Ben - so the list of 10 things, just kept growing - see list here -  he's been so wonderful during this whole pregnancy. I've made some irrational decisions and he just goes with them! Usually after I realize how stupid these things are. We're pretty much there and ready for him now and we both can't wait!

I will try to keep this updated better as D-Day approaches.

33.5 WEEKS PREGNANT

So I've lost my mind, my energy, and my mind!!

Things have been so crazy and I want to get so much done before this little guy comes but I have no ambition by the time I get home.

I still don't feel that his room is complete and have to work on that...I have been hounding Ben (poor Ben) to get a list of like 10 things done.

On top of just preparing and resting now before baby I am trying to get my mother moved and dealing with all of her BS (btw she doesn't appreciate it at all) and I'm trying to be understanding but its hard.

We are refinancing our home and creating more stress on top of it all...

Can I just be done already? I feel so bad that I am not the person that I used to be, I am forgetful and almost feel like the most impatient person in the world and snap at people - maybe its has to do w/ being pregnant, maybe not but this definitely has been the most challenging thing for me in my life so far.

I just keep looking forward to the day when Brenden is here and we can start our new family - I know some of the things wont end, but I want to be selfish and just deal with Ben, the baby, and me...

Ok, so I needed to vent and just having a really bad week...
 

30 WEEKS PREGNANT

So where has the time gone?? 30 weeks already, I can't believe it! The biggest thing in the last 3 weeks since I wrote last is that my belly is ever-expanding like crazy and he's growing quite a bit lately. This is one VERY active baby in there. He rolls and kicks and apparently I'm not allowed to lay on my left side now (in the early weeks I wasn't allowed to lay on my right) when I do lay on my left I get a foot or should I say a hard kick in the side that really hurts!

We got professional belly pics taken at week 29, that I will truly treasure forever. They are so precious!!!!

Only 13 days until my shower and I'm so excited!! Cant wait to see what kind of cute baby things we get and then after the shower we can really get to work on getting the misc things together like washing clothes, bottles, blankets, and doing the "final" touches to the nursery.

I cant wait to meet my little guy and I think this is something that Ben is genuinely excited about!!!

27 WEEKS PREGNANT

So....lets talk about feeling BIG, no I take that back HUGE!!!  I know I'm just going to get bigger but MAN! Things are much harder this week (what a change from redoing the basement) - I find it takes me longer to shower, get dressed, do ANYTHING around the house. My new way of cleaning is work for 15 minutes and take a 30 minute break (no joking) it took me 4 hours to just clean the kitchen, straighten the living room, and put things away in the bathroom. I know I have to listen to my body and now if I don't I just cant go on anymore!

Also this week I made an impromptu visit to the doctor as I was having REALLY bad round ligament pain - get preggers and you will know what I'm talking about - turns out Brenden is now flipped upside down now & pushing on these ligaments, which feels like bad menstrual cramps on one side. All checked out and heard his heart at a healthy 156.

His kicks sure are getting stronger! Sometimes enough to warrant an "OOH!" He loves to be up at 4am, which conveniently enough is the time that Ben gets home and then I have to pee, then I'm hungry, and he's just bouncing around in there like a mad-man!

The doctor joked that he's going to be active like his mom and I said "NO! That's what we don't want!!!" An old roommate just had her little guy on Jan 31st and seeing the pictures of him just makes me want to meet Brenden that much more.

26 WEEKS PREGNANT

So its been like 3 weeks since I've written anything and have a gap in my pics - why? because our basement flooded on Jan 9th and Ben and I have been working on it ever since, every night, everyday...we've got a lot done and are almost complete just a little more work on the Entertainment Center and organization. Ben has been working like 50 + hours and then coming home and then working on the basement.

So far during this project I have painted, spackled, sanded walls, stained, polyed (never again), sealed tile...ugh! I'm beat and just looking forward to resting and enjoying the rest of what seems to be a very short pregnancy!

Each day I'm getting more and more excited to meet him!! This little guy likes to think I'm a trampoline lately!

23 WEEKS PREGNANT
It’s ok to be NOT ok with being pregnant!!

Ok – so you find out you’re pregnant. We went off birth control and just started trying. So we become pregnant and suddenly the whole world is like “Oh My Gosh! You must be SO excited!”

I smile and say “Yes” – not really sure what I’m suppose to feel. When you plan to get married you have time to get used to the idea and you plan for over a year – when you get pregnant, its already said and done with and you have to just deal with the idea.

I knew my whole life I wanted kids and couldn’t wait until I was pregnant. I couldn’t wait to be a mom and then it happened and I was scared to death!

I’m not sure what you are SUPPOSE to feel, but I’m sure its different for every woman. Like I said this was a PLANNED pregnancy and it took me 23 weeks to be ok with it and love the fact that I’m pregnant.

I wasn’t sure what I was feeling toward this little critter that was making me feel like I was going to puke for 4 weeks and then draining my energy for another 12 weeks and I’m suppose to just love this little thing?

Sure there are exciting parts to being pregnant like shopping for things and registering, but the physical toll it takes on your body can sure make you wonder “What the hell are you doing?”

I have come to terms with being pregnant and love the fact that I am going to be someone’s mom. I can’t wait to see my husband hold our little boy. I cant wait to hear his cry or see him crawl. I can’t wait to teach him all the things I wish that my parents would’ve taught me.

I guess the whole point of this blog thing is that – its ok to be scared, worried, and even not sure if you’re doing the right thing. Its ok to waiver in your feelings ~ one day loving it, the next hating it. Remember you also have tons of hormones that are affecting your thinking and feelings too!

22 WEEKS PREGNANT

Wow, I am so glad that the Christmas season is now over with,  a little crazy! Brenden got a lot of nice things like some clothes, a rocking horse, and a lot of baby supplies!!

I have really grown over the last two weeks, my belly is ever expanding and I'm starting to waddle around. Its getting more and more exciting to start buying things and watch the nursery come together.

Kaysie & I got the shower invites done yesterday so now that's out of the way for her and I'm excited to see what else she comes up with for the shower! I have a feeling its going to be great!

Other than that, Ben starts working Jan 2nd at Robinson Metals and will be training on first shift then once trained, he will work 2nd shift :( - I wont get to see him much Mon-Thurs, but then we will have the weekend and we wont need to have our little guy at daycare which saves some ching!

20 WEEKS 2 DAY PREGNANT

IT'S A BOY!!!

 We're so excited to know that Brenden Michael will be joining our family! I have been feeling him move like crazy the last couple days and he punched and kicked me through the ENTIRE ultrasound today! We told our family today and they are so excited!

Right now I am so excited that I cannot write much more so I will have to take time to write more later!

             My Dad's Reaction             Ron & Sharon's Reaction                        

17 WEEKS 1 DAY PREGNANT

Ok so FINALLY we got to go to our 17 week appt and got to hear our little one again!!!!!

I cannot described the feeling when you hear your baby each time. I told my doctor I went through my 15 wk "freak out" that I wasn't feeling pregnant (sick) or haven't felt the little one truly kick me yet - still feeling the "pop rocks" in my tummy but that's it - and she assured me that if I go through another "freak out" that I can call and come in and have a nurse let me hear the heartbeat, which is good to know!

Other than that they just took blood for the regular tests they run and I got my letter that its ok for me to fly! (we leave for Cozumel on this Saturday).

My belly is growing like crazy and each time I do laundry I have to try on all my clothes again to see if they even fit - I hate folding clothes as it is, and then to have to try everything on each time I do a load!

Another thing I was concerned about was that I still haven't gained any weight - normal women would be happy about this, but being preggo believe it or not its a concern. My doctor doesn't seemed to concerned about it and said that I should start seeing some weight gain soon.

Well I should have more to write after we go to Cozumel on our "Baby Moon"!!!

16 WEEKS 2 DAYS PREGNANT

And going NUTS!!! I just want to hear my baby's heartbeat again. Its so hard these last few week feeling better, eating better, but not FEELING pregnant - although I am showing.

Its so hard! Only 6 more days until our appointment and maybe I can breath again. We also have a tour set up with Our Shepard Child Care for Monday. The plan is for me to work part time - we're looking into other options though and will fill you in on the details down the road!

15 WEEKS PREGNANT

Ok - so as you can see I have WAAAYYYYY more energy in the last 2 days, than in the last 3 months of my life!!! Finally have enough content to create this webpage, as well as clean, organize, and start to motivate in other areas of my life LoL!

Saturday my Mother-in-Law & I went maternity clothes shopping, for any of those who know me well enough I HATE SHOPPING (unless of course its from the comforts of my laptop at home) so finally I found a soulmate-shopper in my M.I.L. as she herself does not like to shop and we did very well together!!! After 5 hours of shopping, 5 stores, and a lunch later - I was exhausted, and I mean EXHAUSTED!  She lost me about half way through the last store and wondered how she was going to get me a little ways through the mall and through JC Penney's!

It was good though - guys went hunting and women went shopping - so cliché, yes, but much needed and fun! Now I have comfy clothes that fit, instead of a whole bunch of "well these might fit for another week or so".

Two more weeks from today until 17 wk appointment, can't wait - seems like its been too long and just wanna hear the little one's heart again!